You know what I did today?? I kicked some serious A$$ at the gym today!! You see, I have been MIA at the gym for a minute. I know…. That sucks!! :-( I mean I was going, but like once or twice a week vs. everyday. The sad part is that there is NO excuse for me skipping out on the gym. I am a member of 2 gyms… 2 GYMS. PLUS 1 of them is @ my place of employment…. No, not just @ my job, but on MY floor, right by the elevators, so I have to walk right past the gym every time I get on the elevator, and when I go to the restroom, and when I go to the break room. Oh, and did I mention… I own an elliptical machine? Yep it’s right in my house! Sooooooooo you guessed it, I’ve just been pure ole LAZY!! ‘And I am surely paying for it now, as I can FEEL the difference. Hell, I can SEE the difference too. I am nowhere near MY personal perfect body goal! ARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! However, none of that matters now!! What matters now is that I am back on track, and I’m back with a vengeance!!
It’s not even so much about losing weight, as it is about me getting fit and feeling good about the physical ME. Damn what everyone else says… “I’m losing weight for my health… my blood pressure’s too high, my cholesterol is too high, I’ve got diabetes; Oh and let’s not forget… I need a man; etc..” Don’t get me wrong, if anyone has any health ailments, then they should be trying to lose weight. Alls I’m saying is… those aren’t my reasons because… Blood pressure = normal; Cholesterol = 117 (Excellent!!); Diabetes = negative; Man = want one, but ain’t tryna lose weight to get him. Bottom line is I want to lose weight and get fit so that when I look in the mirror, I’m thinking “DAMN YOU FINE!!” Yeah, maybe that’s a wee bit... oh I dunno… vain or conceited, but WHATEVER!!! Who doesn’t wanna be like I am a SEXY Motha (shutchomouf)? I mean… I do think Sexy is a state of mind… but I’m talking about physically sexy (with clothes off, Yeah, that’s KEY)… to ME. PLUS… I want a physically fit man, and if I don’t know nothing else… I know that you can’t ask something of someone (specifically a significant other) that you don’t possess yourself!
Sooooooo, just how am I planning on achieving my SEXINESS/FINENESS???
EVERYDAY: 5am – Cardio on the elliptical (home)
3 Days/week: Lunch time – Strength training with weights (gym)
2 Days/week: Lunch time – Cardio (gym)
Mondays – Belly Dancing
Tuesdays – Exotic Pole Fitness
Still looking for African Dance classes near the city, and I’m having NO luck. However, if I find some classes, they will be added to my regime. In the meantime, I’ll be sticking to my Belly Dancing and Exotic Pole Fitness. I am too excited about that! Not only will I be getting fit, but I’ll be gaining new skills to use at a later date!!
Hey, Shakira said… da hips don’t lie!!! ‘And I’m about to find out!! Meet my teacher:
And although this is not my teacher, you get the idea of Pole Fitness here:
I think every woman should try these classes out and have a fitness regime just to help them preserve their sexy (mentally & physically) whether trying to lose weight or not! It will do a body good!!!
Monday, June 25, 2007
Friday, June 8, 2007
Caged Bird
Lately, I’ve been stuck in this rut. Feeling like life has come to a screeching HALT! This mainly happens to me when I’m at work. It’s like I just don’t want to be there. Not in a I want to go home and do nothing sense, but more like this isn’t what God placed me on this earth to do sense. Since I’ve been blogging (which hasn’t been that long), I’ve looked back at past posts and realized that this is a recurring theme in MY SAGA. Now, I’m no Smart Guy McFlyy, but I know that this means that I’m gonna have to make a change, and really soon. If I make no changes, I’ll continue to feel like a caged bird. Humph, that’s interesting because when I was younger, and I heard that expression, I never took the time to think about it. ‘But living in THIS moment, I now know exactly what it means. Birds have wings, and they were meant to fly. When one cages a bird, it’s almost as if someone cut off their wings, ultimately stopping them from fulfilling their purpose. That’s just how I feel right now, except my wings haven’t been cut just yet. Right now, they’re tied up. Either way, I’m not fulfilling my purpose, and if I stay here on this path the string that is binding my wings will eventually cut off the blood supply to my wings, and they’ll have to be amputated, YES, they’ll have to be CUT OFF and that’s worse than just being caged. So now, I have to take a deep look within and figure out what the hell I am going to do.
*Taking a deeper look*
First thoughts… Am I just being selfish and self-centered? Thinking the universe owes me something. How dare Black Beauty want to be happy and fulfilled when she goes to work. You know how many people go to work and have careers that they hate just because they need to make money to pay the bills? You aren’t the first person to have these feelings, and you won’t be the last. You should just get some new hobbies and find fulfillment in other ways. Suck it up, and just be grateful that you have a stable career that enables to you to keep the bills paid.
Second thoughts… I am EXTREMELY grateful for the current position I am holding in life and on my job. ‘But to the rest of that mumbo jumbo…. Puhleese!!! Yeah, I know a lot of people wake up everyday and go to jobs that they absolutely despise because they have to. Yeah, I know that most people wonder around aimlessly trying to figure out what they want to do/be when they grow up, most of them ages 25-45. Yeah, I know most people never figure it out. ‘But I also know that I am NOT MOST PEOPLE. I AM ME DAMMIT and I know that I have a greater purpose on this earth that I MUST fulfill in order to reach my greatest potential. I’ve just got to figure out what it is, and then go for it. ‘And SOON!
*Reflections*
If I make no changes, I’ll continue to feel like a caged bird. Birds have wings, and they were meant to fly. When one cages a bird, it’s like someone cut off their wings, ultimately stopping them from realizing their purpose, thus disabling them from reaching their full potential. I’m not fulfilling my purpose, and if I stay here on this path the string that is binding my wings together will eventually cut off the blood supply to my wings, and they’ll have to be amputated. YES, they’ll have to be CUT OFF and that’s worse than just being caged. You see, while caged, at least you know that if you are ever released, you can still fly, so that’s what you dream about…. Praying and hoping, hoping and praying for that day. ‘But with no wings, you can’t fly, so you stop dreaming, you stop hoping, you stop praying, you cease to exist.
*(singing caged bird)... Praying and seeking HIM first*
Dear Heavenly Father:
First of all, thank you. Thank you for breathing the breath of life into my lungs each-and-every day. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for giving me a sound mind, body, and soul. Thank you for healthy family and friends who love me and care for me. Please uncover my eyes that I may see and understand my purpose. I am aware that achieving my purpose doesn’t mean that I have to necessarily do it by way of my career. However, it is one of my most sincere desires to be able to wake up each day and have a career that enables me to fulfill my purpose. Please help me to bring my hopes and dreams to fruition. Please guide me so that in doing these things, ultimately Your will be done.
These blessings, I ask in Your Son Jesus’ name,
AMEN
*Taking a deeper look*
First thoughts… Am I just being selfish and self-centered? Thinking the universe owes me something. How dare Black Beauty want to be happy and fulfilled when she goes to work. You know how many people go to work and have careers that they hate just because they need to make money to pay the bills? You aren’t the first person to have these feelings, and you won’t be the last. You should just get some new hobbies and find fulfillment in other ways. Suck it up, and just be grateful that you have a stable career that enables to you to keep the bills paid.
Second thoughts… I am EXTREMELY grateful for the current position I am holding in life and on my job. ‘But to the rest of that mumbo jumbo…. Puhleese!!! Yeah, I know a lot of people wake up everyday and go to jobs that they absolutely despise because they have to. Yeah, I know that most people wonder around aimlessly trying to figure out what they want to do/be when they grow up, most of them ages 25-45. Yeah, I know most people never figure it out. ‘But I also know that I am NOT MOST PEOPLE. I AM ME DAMMIT and I know that I have a greater purpose on this earth that I MUST fulfill in order to reach my greatest potential. I’ve just got to figure out what it is, and then go for it. ‘And SOON!
*Reflections*
If I make no changes, I’ll continue to feel like a caged bird. Birds have wings, and they were meant to fly. When one cages a bird, it’s like someone cut off their wings, ultimately stopping them from realizing their purpose, thus disabling them from reaching their full potential. I’m not fulfilling my purpose, and if I stay here on this path the string that is binding my wings together will eventually cut off the blood supply to my wings, and they’ll have to be amputated. YES, they’ll have to be CUT OFF and that’s worse than just being caged. You see, while caged, at least you know that if you are ever released, you can still fly, so that’s what you dream about…. Praying and hoping, hoping and praying for that day. ‘But with no wings, you can’t fly, so you stop dreaming, you stop hoping, you stop praying, you cease to exist.
*(singing caged bird)... Praying and seeking HIM first*
Dear Heavenly Father:
First of all, thank you. Thank you for breathing the breath of life into my lungs each-and-every day. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for giving me a sound mind, body, and soul. Thank you for healthy family and friends who love me and care for me. Please uncover my eyes that I may see and understand my purpose. I am aware that achieving my purpose doesn’t mean that I have to necessarily do it by way of my career. However, it is one of my most sincere desires to be able to wake up each day and have a career that enables me to fulfill my purpose. Please help me to bring my hopes and dreams to fruition. Please guide me so that in doing these things, ultimately Your will be done.
These blessings, I ask in Your Son Jesus’ name,
AMEN
Just Blogging
I should have explored the writer in me a long time ago! No… not the professional writer, wanting to be an author of a book or even an article in a magazine, but more along the lines of journaling. I’ve owned a number of diaries, journals, etc… but I’ve written in… 0!!! I enjoy expressing myself, and making my thoughts and opinions known… but I’ve never written down those types of things. I’ve always been more on the vocal side; some would even say… a bit loquacious. ‘But lately I’ve come to realize that people don’t always wanna hear what you have to say or what’s going on in your life, and sometimes they do wanna hear about what’s going on in your life, but they’re not always available, so F it!!! I’ll just blog about it, HA!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
TAG, Who's it???
Southern Lady (QuarterLife Mocha Girl) has tagged me. ‘But I’m not tagging anyone else.
Here are the rules:
A)Each person tagged gives 7 random facts about themselves.
B)Those tagged need to write in their blogs the 7 facts, as well as the rules of the game.
C)You need to tag 7 others and list their names on your blog.
D)You have to leave those you plan on tagging a note in their comments so they know that they have been tagged and to read your blog.
1. I am very short (5’0”); however, I’ve never felt that way… even though all of my closest friends are 5’7” and taller with the exception of 1.
2. I have two younger brothers but I treat them as though they are my children (not in a bad way… I just feel like I need to be overly protective of them). Talk about ‘em and you’ll feel my wrath!!!
3. I’ve NEVER been to Disney World. :-( ‘But I’m planning to go soon!! I LOVE theme parks!!!
4. I want Tyrese to scream at me, have his way with me, then do the beat it up dance! Then I'ma clean & make them tacos!!!
5. I have a shoe fettish. I LOVE shoes, and when I see a really nice pair (not on other people, but in stores, online, or even on myself, oh and on nice looking men), I get turned on. Like... I think to myself, that's a sexy ass pair of shoes... I would look sooooo HAWT in those!!! 'And if it's an attractive man wearing nice shoes... I'm just turned on PERIOD! I feel the same way about a well groomed man who smells good and wears a nice watch.
6. I'm allergic to strawberries, but I eat them anyway. They're one of my favorite fruit. 'And add them with Champagne... Wooo... you got me!!!
7. I HEART 70’s music… Al Green; Earth, Wind, & Fire; The Isley Brothers; Marvin Gaye; and Donny Hathaway are a few of my favorite artists from that era.
Sooooooo there you have it…. A few tidbits about me! Sorry… didn’t tag anyone else.
Here are the rules:
A)Each person tagged gives 7 random facts about themselves.
B)Those tagged need to write in their blogs the 7 facts, as well as the rules of the game.
C)You need to tag 7 others and list their names on your blog.
D)You have to leave those you plan on tagging a note in their comments so they know that they have been tagged and to read your blog.
1. I am very short (5’0”); however, I’ve never felt that way… even though all of my closest friends are 5’7” and taller with the exception of 1.
2. I have two younger brothers but I treat them as though they are my children (not in a bad way… I just feel like I need to be overly protective of them). Talk about ‘em and you’ll feel my wrath!!!
3. I’ve NEVER been to Disney World. :-( ‘But I’m planning to go soon!! I LOVE theme parks!!!
4. I want Tyrese to scream at me, have his way with me, then do the beat it up dance! Then I'ma clean & make them tacos!!!
5. I have a shoe fettish. I LOVE shoes, and when I see a really nice pair (not on other people, but in stores, online, or even on myself, oh and on nice looking men), I get turned on. Like... I think to myself, that's a sexy ass pair of shoes... I would look sooooo HAWT in those!!! 'And if it's an attractive man wearing nice shoes... I'm just turned on PERIOD! I feel the same way about a well groomed man who smells good and wears a nice watch.
6. I'm allergic to strawberries, but I eat them anyway. They're one of my favorite fruit. 'And add them with Champagne... Wooo... you got me!!!
7. I HEART 70’s music… Al Green; Earth, Wind, & Fire; The Isley Brothers; Marvin Gaye; and Donny Hathaway are a few of my favorite artists from that era.
Sooooooo there you have it…. A few tidbits about me! Sorry… didn’t tag anyone else.
You Know What???
- I want my supervisor to go run outside in the middle of I-10 @ 5:oo pm this Friday!!! YES, YES… like Lil Duvall said, “Kill YOSELF!!!!!!!!!!!” PLEASE!!!!!
OK, that was harsh, but HE gettin’ on my nerves!!!! 'AND it's just chhho mOdey!
- I would also like for people to STOP walking up to my desk asking about work stuff while I’m eating. I know I’m eating at my desk, but I’m STILL EATING, which means that I’m taking my LUNCH BREAK!!!!! I’M @ LUNCH you IDIOTS!!!!!
- I want my co-worker to stop banging on the freaking key board IMMEGIATELY!!! We all know you’re hard @ work right now… No need to kill the keyboard in the process!
- I want some of mama D’s seafood pasta and stuffed bell peppers… Mmm, Mmm, GOOD!!!!
- I want today to be Saturday so that I could be sitting in front of my TV right now with a bowl of Frosted Flakes, the remote control, and my gang of DVDs
- I wish He-Man and She-Ra still came on b/c that’s what I’d be watching if today was Saturday.
- I wanted to be the black She-Ra: Princess of Power (He-Man’s twin sister). Hell… I still want to be She-Ra! ‘And I’d be kicking ass right now… mostly the people who aggravate the hell outta me at work! Yes, I’d be She-Ra, and I’d kick their asses like they were the Evil Horde! "For the honor of Grayskull…I am She-Ra!!!!!!"
- He-Man’s line was better though. "By the power of Grayskull...I have the power!" I always walked around the house saying, "I HAVE THE POWER!!!"
- I also miss the smurfs. I had smurf cereal!! They were delicious, at least that’s how I remember them.
- I remember when Toucan Sam used to want you to ‘follow your nose’!! That always made me want some Froot Loops!!! Mmm… I think Ima go buy some! I suppose Toucan Sam still wants you to follow your nose, but I haven’t seen a Froot Loop commercial in a minute.
- I think I’m gonna move by the end of this year or the beginning of next year.
- I’m probably gonna move to D.C., Atlanta, Dallas, or Houston.
- When I get home, I’m gonna watch Waist Deep AGAIN!!! Tyrese is soooooooooo fine!!
- Boris Kodjoe does nothing for me. I dunno… he just doesn’t
- I think Bow Wow is Allen Iverson’s son, and the chick that sings/raps (whatever) that Lip Gloss song could be his daughter.
- I haven’t REALLY been into basketball since Jordan left, but I do watch it from time to time. I had really started to like the Pistons, but they just pissed me off.
- I’ll be 27 this year, and I’m actually excited about it!!! (October 6th.. buy me something!!!)
- When I’m typing my blogs, people think I’m actually working! Bwahahahah!!!
- Actually, I’m about to stop typing b/c I’m supposed to be here @ work to WORK!!!! So… that’s what Imma do!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Deepest Fear
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
~ From A RETURN TO LOVE by Marianne Williamson ~
~ From A RETURN TO LOVE by Marianne Williamson ~
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
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